Posted by Poet on March 1, 2005, at 21:18:30
In reply to Trying to re-bury what I disclosed T- CSA Trigger, posted by Poet on February 28, 2005, at 19:13:52
I'll try to do more personal responses, tomorrow, I hope that won't violate one of Dr. Bob's posting rules.
I couldn't let my T read what I wrote, I read her some of it and she rightfully noticed that it was full of self blame.
I told her (for the countless time) that I am a therapy failure. She told me that she doesn't know what I think therapy is, but someone who had the courage to tell her what little I did was no failure.
I wish I could just blurt it all out or write it down and let her read it, but maybe little by little I can let go of some of this.
We are not to blame for every bad thing that has happened to us. Thank you all for reminding me of that.
My T said to call her if I need to talk and that she'll see me on Saturday if I need another session before next week. She rarely works on Saturday. I didn't cry in her office, I never cry in front of her, but I know she could tell I was about to. I probably am going to call her and see her, but right now I need another glass of wine.
Thank you for the cyber hugs. I do accept them and am grateful for them. Maybe someday I'll allow physical hugs, but that's a long way off.
Poet
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