Posted by pinkeye on April 28, 2005, at 17:15:42
Thinking back, I am just able to visualize how good it would have been - to have a normal childhood, a loving father with appropriate kindness and strictness, and an emotionally and mentally equally powerful mother, and to have seen a happy relationship between them. And I could have had every year of my life spent in the way I should have spent.. been a 9 year old at 9, a 10 year old at 10, and grew slowly at my own pace - without fear and pain and guilt and assuming responsibilities way above my age, and having to fulfill the needs of my father, and carrying it around with me.
If my fahter had little more sense - just a little bit more, everything would have been so well done. My mother was a beautiful lady, and she was very affectionate and warm, and both my parents came from rich family. My fahter was a doctor, and was well respected in the society.. and they had lots of relatives and friends around and he spoilt everything. He stopped practicing, and got all these weird ideas about being an atheist and being a rebel etc etc.. And I was a beautiful girl in my childhood. I just wish that I could go back and put a little more sense to my father at that time.
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