Posted by LittleGirlLost on July 25, 2005, at 16:05:26
In reply to I'm glad » LittleGirlLost, posted by daisym on July 24, 2005, at 0:28:18
>>> that she is back and you've reconnected. It is a double-edge sword, I know. But I "hear" the smile in your post and she sounds just perfect for you.
Awww thank you SO much for saying that. :)
I mean, I think she is, but confirmation from an outside source is always nice.
(Especially when friends tried to "warn" me about my last T and I wouldn't listen. Wish I had, but then I never would have met my current T.)>>>I hope you let yourself need her and let her see that need. It is important.
Can I ask you a serious question? HOW do I do this? I mean, I do need her, but I feel so much like I have to hide it... or that it's a bad thing. Not that she makes me feel that way at all, but I'm afraid to need her, and/or for her to know it. It's probably my faulty wiring. I understand you saying it's important and I wish I can share these feelings with her, but first of all, how? and secondly, how do I do it without feeling worse? I guess as I try to hide it, I can be in denial to a degree, but if it's all out there... ya know?
>>> Did you tell her about calling the other therapist while she was gone?I sure did!! And she seemed so pleased with me! I think I made more of a big deal about it than she did! Kept asking her if it was okay that I did that and explained why I did. She said I was resourceful... I think you (or someone here) said that about me too. Actually though, he wasn't covering for her. She said she usually asks him, but he was going away for a conference, and since she would only be gone 5 days, she didn't ask him. All that and she STILL said it was okay that I called him... although at that point I felt silly. She was surprised that he was there though because he had been away, fortuantely came back the day I called. I told her that if he didn't answer, I'd worry that he was in London too! So, all in all, I did good. :)
Part of me thinks... Gee, he wasn't even covering, and he knew where she was going, why can't I? Oh, let's not even go there!
~lgl
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