Posted by daisym on July 29, 2005, at 18:40:04
In reply to Re: Talking about Sex (potential trigger) » daisym, posted by fallsfall on July 29, 2005, at 9:00:24
We talked today...I asked him if he had become freaked out later, he said "no" -- (big sigh of relief).
He said today that it seemed like I was doing better. And he wondered if this was true and if so, why I thought so. I said because I felt completely connected to him, I wasn't fearful that he was leaving right now and I think because there is a huge weight off by having told him about being suicidal.
I think the other piece is that he is allowing me to want to be taken care of. He isn't telling me I shouldn't want that, and he isn't telling me I can have it either. But he is saying it is OK to want it and to mourn not having it. There is something very tender in this grief...and I realize as I type this it is because I don't feel so alone right now. I've reconnected to him in a way I haven't been for awhile. And I'm posting again here more.
I don't know. I don't want to over analyze it. My therapist said, "let's just love it while we have it." Sounds like good advice.
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