Posted by Poet on December 7, 2005, at 10:15:53
Now hanging above my desk is a sign saying Please Don't Secret Santa me. It's in a nice font with clip art of a figure holding a do not enter sign. It's not mean spirited, though I suppose giving away the gift left on my chair to someone else probably will be thought of as being crabby (not word I would use, word I use would be censored) but I did it anyway.
When someone asked what I got, I said I don't know I need to give it back, I don't want it. She took it *I love Christmas, I'll take it.*
That's when I put the sign up. Things like secret gift exchanges cause me anxiety. Crying in the store anxiety. I don't bake. I can't just run home and whip up a batch of cookies. I could buy candy, but don't know what kind and I'll stand in the candy aisle talking out loud, crying and looking like a crazy person. I shouldn't have to go to pdoc for more meds to be able buy a Secret Santa gift, but I would have to.
I went through this at Halloween when they did something like this at work. I thought I was so clear that I don't want to participate in anything like this again.
Too much anxiety. It's not a simple fun thing to me. I think I do everything wrong and that includes buying gifts, even small ones.
This is not fun. This does not make me merry.
I'm bulimic I don't need candy or cookies-they will only make me hate myself more if I eat them.Pray my sign works. I wish it could say. I need to be left completely alone. Please.
Poet
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