Posted by sleepygirl on December 8, 2005, at 19:06:51
In reply to Rough again, again with the Survivor stuff, posted by Racer on December 8, 2005, at 13:34:33
Hey Racer,
I'd really like to either hug you or beat someone up for you. :-)But what you say does strike a chord with me, because I feel like I have "survived" despite the odds. I do however bear the scars, and I feel a lot of loss, and a lot of sadness.
I'm not that tough, I did what I could, the only things I could, and I didn't chose my reality - but I have hated myself for it anyway.
I hate myself a lot because I didn't know better than I did, because I WAS affected, and I am often afraid people will find out about it too, and about how "pathetic" I am, and I'm angry because I had to handle it alone.That's just my reaction (for whatever it's worth)
I hope you get some good therapy work out of it.
poster:sleepygirl
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