Posted by allisonross on December 9, 2005, at 12:27:42
In reply to Trigger of all kinds T and types » allisonross, posted by happyflower on December 9, 2005, at 11:01:54
> I think after suffering from some very shocking child abuse for (I should of
> died) for many years,I hear you, Happy. I had a friend tell me that she couldn't believe that I had any sense of self, and that I was not dead. i think it is a miracle, too...if not for my sense of humor life would be unbearable.
if I didn't learn to laugh, I would have killed myself if I didn't release the pain. My T said I suffered some of the worse child abuse he has heard, and we has been a T for a long time and is an organization to prevent child abuse and helps with CPS to deceide about
> what to do with kids of child abuse.
>
> Laughing helps with the pain. If I couldn't laugh, I would be in an institution, I am sure.me, too.
So maybe my humor is a little offcolor, but if you walked in my shoes, the more pain you endured
> , the more you need to laugh.My t asked me what did I think was behind the joking, flirting, teasing stuff. I said: pain.....a way of keeping it away. Life is too short and precious to take it seriously; we should live each day as if it were our last....
because....one day
it will be. I figure as long as my friends/loved ones are not ill, or dying, It's NOT that serious! Life can be, and is so tragic and always something ucky happening. Might as well lie down and croak right now, cause it goes on, with or without you!
iI would rather be a little obnoxious sometimes, then dead.
> I am still learning what is acceptable, so I don't mean to offend anyone. I do have a high level of admiration and respect for my T.So do I.. We have an unbelievable relationship. The reason is because as he says: i am not afraid to discuss the "hard" stuff; meaning the scary stuff about ALL my feelings, and yes....those for him, also.
Yes I am sexually attracted to him. Sex is suppose to be a natual thing, I know some have been abused, so I see where they are coming from and why it triggers them. I am sure with my T's sense of humor, he wouldn't be insulted by my sexual comments, in fact I think he would be flattered by them.
Mine LOVES my teasing and sense of humor; he has a wonderful outlook on life, an is not afraid to be.....authentic with me.
But I will respect others and put trigger warning on my posts(probably most of them)) In fact I am almost ready to tell him I want him wrapped up naked with a bow for Christmas. I am sure he would laugh, because he would understand.
Know that song (I love it) played at Christmastime---ALL I WANT FOR CHRISTMAS......IS YOU (it's really fast and makes ya wanna dance); speaking of that, must start preparing for my Flamenco Christmas performance.
There ya have it, there ya go!!
hugs, Ally (sassy, wild-child)
poster:allisonross
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