Posted by milly on May 19, 2006, at 13:16:37
In reply to Milly???? Are you around???, posted by madeline on May 19, 2006, at 7:53:15
Wierd wierd day
Police have been informed by the pdoc team and they have informed sh*tface and school about the risk.
School is panicking and sh*tface is apparently all over the place!!!
they instructed the chaplain to disuade me not to attend but i am going to because if i can get through this i will have won and proved that i am stronger than him, he will NEVER hurt me again.
I have a plan. I've sent 'little' milly to safety in mufflys cave and 'big' milly knows how to 'escape' to the safety of T's office (well she's done it before so i hope she still can) i will be surrounded physically by friends who care (and who would love to do something to sh*tface themselves but are perfectly stable so are constrained by socially accepted behaviour)who will keep me safe, but i really think if i can see him in the flesh and walk away then iy might be all over.
Immensly satisfying to hear how scared he is, bullies are ALWAYS cowards.
i don't KNOW what will happen but I no longer feel i have to be sacrificed in order to end it, i am very afraid because other reactions have been completly out of my control and i cannot KNOW that something won't happen but i HAVE to face this.
I really need your hugs for tomorrow and i really hope i will be in a position to return to babble. I have made lists of what i would lose and babble made it on to it.
Oh the pain is building and i am very scared and confused.
milly
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