Posted by orchid on May 19, 2006, at 16:21:47
Someday, when I finally settle at one place instead of being in the constant shuttling mode, and have a decent insurance again, I would like to find a male T - a very warm and emotional and empathetic one. Much older than me - maybe in the 50s or 60s so that the possibility of romance doesn't come into picture. And I would like to work on the still childish longing for a perfect father figure that is very much there deep inside.
In spite of my valiant efforts to overcome it, and develop my own self approval and authority, I have to admit, I keep failing short (much to my own surprise at this having been this hard a problem and these days a little amusement). The deep most feelings are still like a puzzle, and it just doesn't fit right whatever I try. I attribute it to being confused the heck out of my emotions by my dad, but in seems un surpassable on my own in spite of extreme efforts.
A great T who would be a supplement father is just what I need I think. As Pfinstegg had mentioned, it might just improve my job and happiness in life. If my husband had been older than me, that would have been perfect - but since he is younger, it just doesn't satisfy the need for a father figure. That is why I think I chose my first T, but of course he failed.
Any inputs?
poster:orchid
thread:645986
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