Posted by susan47 on May 25, 2006, at 22:07:27
This is my question, but a little background for it first.. I was married to this guy, well, let's just say that he didn't make me crazy because I don't really like to think anybody has that power. But the fact is that he hurt me more than any man has ever even come close to, I'm not talking about betrayal or anything like that, because that hurts like hell too. But the thing that he did, is that he set me up, he actually set me up to be hurt from the very beginning, by the thing he did. See, and it wouldn't matter at all who I was, I could have been any woman, and I was, really, in fact, because I came into this person's life when he was ready to have at it, when he was ready to let out all the hate he ever had against his mother, and he did that, he did that not only with me but I know he did it with other women too, but NOW I know that.
I didn't know that until, like, five or seven minutes ago ...
it hit me.
And then this other thought came into my head, pop! like that ... and the thought was this. That the way B used me was to create an atmosphere of insecurity and jealousy in his partner ... and he did that successfully .. time and again, I'm fairly certain now ... you know, once a true thought hits you, you just keep finding substance for it behind every corner ....
But the thing that hit me was that when I was in the throes of insecurity about my T, I suddenly noticed that he doesn't wear a wedding ring. So one time I remember accusing him of not being appropriate in wearing his wedding band. I remember, writing something about how I was sure his SO wore one, so why not him? I remember saying something about how it was ridiculous, really, and meant to set me up .. but not just me. I remember, thinking, at the time ...
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