Posted by muffled on February 11, 2007, at 22:45:43
In reply to Re: mmmm seroquel :) » muffled, posted by wishingstar on February 11, 2007, at 18:11:29
> I took 25mg last night. To be honest, it was as much of an attempt to just drug myself into a happier daze as it was a test to see how I'd react (make sure I didnt get violently ill, who knows) in case I ever wanted to overdose on it later. I'm not saying I'm doing to OD on it. But knowing its there is a safety blanket I guess. But I had to see how I'd react to it before it felt "safe" in that sense. Before it felt comforting to have. I know that probably doesnt make sense.
Nope doesn't make any sense and I completely understand what you are saying.
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> I start my job tomorrow so I'm hoping keeping busy with that will help. I think it will. At least I'll be too busy to obsess over things. Looking forward to seeing Ginny on Thurs. It's not that long.. I'll make it. I can feel her there, and I know she cares, so I can make it. She was checking her messages twice a day this weekend to see if I called. I guess she probably does that every weekend anyway, but its still nice knowing shes thinking of me. She told me about 2 weeks ago that she knows I dont have any hope right now so shes going to hold on to it for me. So I'm trying to hold on to her and trust her with that.I think, if you can just get past this first couple of weeks you will be OK.
I think it will be hard, but I think it is possible. I think you have put all your resources at hand to help yourself.
If you could tell those you work with that you are nervous, that would likely be OK.
This week is training so I think it could be interesting for you. It could be quite interesting indeed.
So mebbe get some klonopin or something, or do the seroquel as well, to get you thru this patch.
Its VERY hard for you I know. You haven't done this, you got no faith in yourownself. But I got faith in you. I've read how honest you can be, I've read how much caring you have in your heart. The people that interviewed you no doubt picked up on your special qualities that you will bring to this job.
Maybe this isn't the time, maybe it is. I wish you best of luck either way.
Take care,
I rooting for you OK?
(((wishy)))
You freakin, but it'll be OK.
This WILL pass.
Muffled
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