Posted by RN320 on March 11, 2007, at 19:53:36
In reply to Re: Update on my T who was critically ill in the f » RN320, posted by Dinah on March 11, 2007, at 11:30:39
Hi Dinah- Thanks for your message. I remember that you had so many supportive things to say to me when ths happened. It's been a really rough few months, and it wasn't easy trying to be Dr. P's "court jester".
His comments to me about other patients were a surprise to me- not what he had to say, but that he mentioned them. He's never mentioned one other patient to me in >5 yrs. I'm sure that he understands the reason behind some of the hi-jinks, and I've never found him to be anything other than compassionate and kind, so I don't doubt for a minute that his other patients are treated just like me. I think that what he was trying to say is that he really needs to pay close attention to taking care of himself- not get over-stressed, etc. but still has to find a way to care for everyone. He had also mentioned to me that keeping some of his more difficult patients at a distance a little longer would hopefully not hurt their feelings as many others (that aren't difficult) are going to be waiting until he has the stamina to get back to his practice full time.
If you only knew the restraint I had to put on myself- what I would have liked to have done was to make him dinner and bake him cookies- something a little more personal, but I kept telling myself that it wasn't cool, or my role to do that. But it was hard still.......
Thanks again, Dinah, for keeping me in your thoughts. I hope that this nightmare is really going to be over, and that he doesn't relapse. I don't feel comfortable talking to him about anything related to my feelings about his illness, as I don't want to say anything that may inadvertantly upset him. I also don't want to unload on him all of the things that I've been saving up since he got sick- and there's an awful lot. I feel like I'd be "dumping" on him, and again- I don't want to do anything that may be harmful to him as he continues to recover and gain strength. Maybe I'll just stick with the present pressing issues and leave the other stuff for another time? Yet I want so much to talk to him..... I'll let you know how my appt goes tomorrow.
/m
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