Posted by All Done on March 15, 2007, at 2:00:09
I know I always post when something's wrong or I need help, so instead...
Tonight, I was talking with my T about how I feel so very unimportant to him and so many other people. He's told me before that I am important to him and he repeated it again today. He was telling me how I bring a lot of insight and I'm always very genuine. But it's different than that. I want to be important in a different way, not so clinical. When I said that, he said, "you've said you want to know that I love you". Bingo. But I was quiet and then instead asked if there's anything about me that's different from all his other clients. He said "yes"...pause...then with a grin..."I have to stop. We're out of time." I told him that was evil, we laughed, and then he told me in the voice he uses when he wants me to know he's serious, "I adore you, Laurie."
I should have shut up, but instead I said something about there having to be other clients he feels that way about. He shrugged - kind of like "I don't know about that." I rambled some more about not feeling adored by anyone except my son, n, who has the same name as my T. I said maybe it's my lot in life to be adored by the "n"s of the world. And then finally...finally, I shut up and said, "thank you."
It was nice, though. His words stuck with me all the way home and I'm guessing I might even be able to hang onto them until my next session. One can only hope, right? ;-)
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