Posted by frida on March 15, 2007, at 22:23:24
In reply to How long did it take you to actually TALK in T????, posted by Iwillsurvive on March 15, 2007, at 22:13:27
dear Iwillsurvive...
I feel a little ashamed to say this, but after all these years I still can't talk freely. Some days I can, some days I go backwards.
Before I couldn't even say a word, now at least some days I can talk from my heart, but I can't talk freely as me and my T wish i could.
I've seen her for 6+ years, 7...a long time...but it took me a long, long time to build trust. I feel she cares about me and she wants to hear me and wants me to really, really talk. I try...and it is a little easier now but I have moments in which I just can't say what i am truly feeling and it's painful.
She's felt frustrated with me, sometimes, but always stuck with me and she really helped me through so many hard times and is the first person ever to truly hear and be there for me without abandoning me or betraying my trust.
She's said that I am challenging and she does hurt and suffer when I sit there and don't talk...but she wants to help :o). She understands and has said that the little girl in me was hurt from such an early early age, that she won't give up on me and that little girl.I feel bad it has taken me so long, and I still can't talk, but that's the way it is...
sending support,
Frida
(I write too and there I can be totally honest, that helped)
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