Posted by Happyflower on March 20, 2007, at 6:14:59
I am different person now, I am not shy reserved or scared of people. I think I am so happy when I am in school and out in the public away from my husband, that I am "taking in life" becoming zealous and giddy.
I might be even turning into such a flirt too, something I never was bold enough to do before. I am talking in class expressing myself about issues. The old me would have not even gone to class let alone take a chance and say anything.
People tell me I am "fun" and "outspoken". me? since when? Since when did I have this self confidence? When I fell on my butt in school a vey months ago and all I could do was laugh my *ss off because I thought it was funny, well maybe 2 years ago I would have died from embarrassment, left and went home.
Two years ago I wouldn't of met up with Babblers at the last minute and especially wouldn't of stayed overnight with one of them no matter how nice they seem. I had fun that night because I took a chance.
I guess I am just not used to the new me, and when people say how outgoing and fun to be around I think they can't be talking about me. I told my T that he turned me into a unstopable monester. Is this what life is suppose to be about? Having fun? with people? who knew? This is going to take time getting used to.
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