Posted by LlurpsieNoodle on July 25, 2007, at 9:08:25
So I've noticed an interesting trend lately
1) I want to feel connected to something 'familiar' because of all the turmoil around me. I wake up not knowing which way the window is and not knowing who's bed I'm in (mine, just to clarify)
2) I want people to care about me
3) I don't want people to worry about me
4) I don't want anyone to care for me unless they are doctors or my husband
5) I want to have friends, including babble friends
6) I get satisfaction from responding to someone else's posts and the feeling that maybe I said something that helps them in some minute fashion.
So, this leads up to a big polynomial with lots of
points of inflection. Goes something like this.*Increased posting when I feel better [mostly to support others]
*Decreased posting when I start to feel poorly, unless I need more specific info on meds, in which case I'll drop a line on /psychobabble
*Increased posting when I notice that the "feeling poorly" is leading to lack of good judgement. The exercise of supporting others helps snap me back into "good judgment" shape
*Increased posting when I find a way of talking about myself in some dry clinical term
*Decreased posting when I find that I'm struggling with T-me relationship.
*Increased posting when T and Me are clicking and insights are being made
*Increased posting when I feel incipient crisis
*Decreased posting when I feel in the midst of crisis.
*Trick posting when I'm in the midst of crisis but don't want babblefriends to know about it. I'll get all "empirical on their *sses" retreat to the realm of science and away from feelings and uncertainties
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The reason why I'm starting this thread is two-fold.1) to help me understand how I can be a more consistent poster and learn to reach out to my T and pdoc in real life when I'm feeling very bad (like right now)
2) to help me put together a little paragraph on some of the factors that lead different posters to post more or less frequently. This is in preparation for the American Psychiatric Association (APA) conference in May. Dr. Bob wants to submit a proposal for a workshop about some of the issues of participating in a message board about mental health. Read more here.
http://www.dr-bob.org/babble/admin/20070702/msgs/770372.html
Thanks for your input, even if it's only a line.
-Ll
poster:LlurpsieNoodle
thread:771855
URL: http://www.dr-bob.org/babble/psycho/20070714/msgs/771855.html