Posted by Happyflower 1 :-) on September 11, 2007, at 22:21:46
I am missing my old T now, I just miss talking to him right now, I told my new T that. He said it was normal, concidering how long we worked together. I think he is avoiding the gym too because of me, so I am not seeing him either. I miss him.
My new T did some visualization of my safe place. It felt weird. He asked why I didn't close my eyes, I said I didn't know I was suppose to. He said I didn't ,he was just surprised I could do it with my eyes open. He had his eyes closed, well I thought he did anyways. Weird. Oh, well , so I am weird, I could have told him that. He is getting me ready for some intense stuff to come.
He told me to make a sh*t list of 10 things. I asked him 10 (hundred or thousand)? Yeah, I am a smart *ss. so what? what ya gonna make of it?
I feel weird , everytime I go in his office and I think it was the 4th session so far this week, his office gets smaller and smaller. I like his velvet soft brown wing back chair. I can just sink into it and my feet reach the floor. lol I like the natural lighting from the bay windows, it feels safe.
I ask him do you think you know enough about me to do this EMDR. He said he did, he felt comfortable with it. I don't know it doesn't seem like he knows me very well. I am feeling a little bit like resisting doing it for some reason. Not sure if I want to dive in deep. My toes are in water, and the sharks are swiming by my feet nibbling on them. Don't know if I can, what if I totally lose myself? What if I don't ever come back from the horrible memories? I see him every Monday, not much time to think about it. uggh~!
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