Posted by Dory on September 13, 2007, at 21:31:49
In reply to Where's Dory?, posted by muffled on September 12, 2007, at 22:02:40
sorry... school started and has been hectic. Other things too but i can't post about that on the boards, only in chat.
things with T got a LOT better today. We made some good ground. i was mad but unable to say that because i get too afraid... so i got around it sort of and he got the meaning and we went from there. He has finally understood a lot more about me and what i have been saying. i told him i still need to stew on it b/c there were somethings i couldn't say and didn't know how to.
then we got into doing some stuff from my past. This the first time really. It was hard. (and we haven't even started! ha!) He said it took a lot of guts for me to tell him the things i did... even though i couldn't say some things... could say "something happened" but couldn't say what... could tell him about some stuff though. It's a start. i did tell him i was 4 yrs old the first time i wished i was dead. i didn't quite know what it meant even, or how to get to be dead... i just remember laying there "trying" to be dead... how stupid is *that*?
he said he wasn't going anywhere. he said he understood more about what happened over the last couple of weeks even from just what i told him about my past today.
i feel very inspired but sick at the same time. it feels good to feel connected with him again. Maybe not all little birds die too quickly?
poster:Dory
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