Posted by Daisym on September 15, 2007, at 23:16:24
In reply to so hard, posted by sunnydays on September 15, 2007, at 19:34:55
Therapy is hard most of the time. We talk about a lot of the warm fuzzy moments here but I know that so many more moments are filled with pain and work and anxiety. You show great courage by continuing to be honest with your therapist about your fears. I'm always impressed.
I think it is hard to not worry about termination. Because the worry is about so many other things wrapped up in this. Asking about it is a way of asking, "are you ready for me to leave? Will you miss me?" etc. But I also think it is one way to sort of avoid what is immediately in front of us. Not that it isn't legitimate as a worry, but it is away to say in the subtext - "I need reassurance" and to get it.
I love that you brought your stuffed animal(s) with you. I did that a few years ago. I have a very special one that arrived in my life when I was 7 and she was the one I told all my secrets to. I'd talked about her lots of times in therapy so he knew how special she was. When I took her in, I carried her in a brown paper bag and when I took her out to show my therapist he said, "you can't keep her in a bag!" and she sat on his lap for the rest of the session. He held her very gently and correctly. I really wish I had a picture of him holding her.
I hope your weekend goes fast and you find a way to stop worrying, at least for a little while.
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