Posted by star008 on December 29, 2007, at 0:57:55
AS some of you know, I have been awfully depressed lately and feeling so hopeless. Finally called my p-doc and left a message..told him I wasn't doing well and am not due to go there for 3 weeks.. 3 weeks is a long time to keep going on like this since I have felt bad since the last appt I had with him. All he did that day was add one more med tht doesn't do a thing for me.
well it has been two days and he has not bothered to call back yet.. I think it is iresponsible. He doesn't know what state I am in or how bad it is or isn't.
Called the office to see if I could get in sooner but they are all booked up and can only call me if someone cancels.. blah..They said they would do that when i saw how far off my appointment was going to be to begin with.. Well they never called. Can I beleive NO ONE cancelled??I hate to try to find a new one. Ihave to pay them big bucks to evaluate me.. Why don't I get to evaluate them without paying them tons of money? I have to pay just to find out tht someone is strange or that we just don't connect. I wish there was a way just to met them without going through all the stuff.. My insurance pays alot of it but there is only so much that they will pay for in a year..Maybe i will go back to one I met awhile ago.. I have the one I am seeing now cause I ws in a research study that he ran. He seems compassionate enough, (when he returns calls), but I don't know if he really hears me.. He doesn't know me at all.
I am hanging in there.. A little better today but I want to be LOTS better!!
I really don't want to talk to someone new either. I am tired of talking and telling people all my issues and stuff. Kind of too much work to talk about. I am seeing another T in addition to my regular one and I find I just don't tell her alot. I don't mean to be tht way but i just don't want to get into it. I guess that all has to do with the hopelessness?? Like why bother talking to these people who really probably don't care all that much anyway. Why bother talking when I have no faith that it is going to help anyway??
hope everyone had a nice xmas, (if possible). We can all be relieved it is over now;)
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