Posted by TherapyGirl on May 29, 2008, at 19:36:18
In reply to Re: Surgical report ***Trigger***, posted by myrtledog on May 29, 2008, at 1:26:47
Thanks to all of you for supporting me. It really, really helps to be able to "discuss" this with people who know all the ways this is freaking me out. Daisy, you said it well when you called it a double-edged sword.
I'm going to talk to my primary care doc about what else could cause the adhesions -- there are multiple causes, but so far I haven't had any of the things that are listed except for the abuse. (Thanks, B2C, for the idea.) Part of me is horrified that there could be evidence after this long. And part of me feels validated.
My T was fairly good with it tonight, but also threw me a curve ball, so I just couldn't get very into it. She told me at the beginning of the session (because she wanted me to know this before deciding how deep to get into it) that she will be out next week due to a family medical situation. It's serious and I'm worried about her. And it just sucks for me. She also said she may be iffy for a while. I get it, I really do, but it is so not what I wanted to hear tonight.
One slightly funny thing -- I sat down and she said, "I have an item for the agenda." I looked at her and said, "Sh*t" under my breath. She said, "Now don't panic." I gave her a look and said, "I'm not panicked, but frankly you have never had an item for the agenda that has made me happy." She gave a small laugh and said, "Yeah, and this isn't gonna make you happy either."
I'm going to sit with it some more. Maybe I should get my journal back out. I haven't done that in a long while.
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