Posted by LadyBug on June 4, 2008, at 16:55:24
I was calling him to set up an appointment for her. He's booked up for at least 2 months. He called me and said he had a cancellation today at 2:00. I called back and said I would have her come since it worked out with her work schedule. We were playing phone tag, but when he called back I was able to answer.
I haven't talked to him for several months, but it seemed so good to talk to him. I think he and I agree on some of the things my daughter does that are destructive. One good example is how she has the father of her baby (she placed for adoption)back in her life.
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Her T asked me if there was anything at all that I liked about him, the boyfriend. I said nope, not one thing! He said he felt the same way and has tried every way to point it out to her. I said she lost her "Dad" when I left him, and now he's in jail, she lost her baby, by the adoption, and those are 2 significant losses. I said she is craving attention, he's there so she takes what she can get. I'm at my wits end with her. Why she choses to be in this relationship with such a loser.
I guess my point is, talking to him on the phone made me miss my T terribly. I have no plans to see her again, but I have until September to decide, or longer if I need it. He asked me how I was doing, asked about my new job and how things were going for me. It makes me cry to think about it. I miss having someone that cares about me and my kids, not just my daughter that sees him.
I wish I could tell my T how much she hurt me by the things she said and did. I told her last week when I saw her for the last time but I'm afraid she's so angry with me she didn't care.
I have so many regrets. I had so many things all at once hit me that I didn't handle them with my usual strength. It's been hard for me to process everything on my own.
Just venting........
LadyBug
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