Posted by sunnydays on June 6, 2008, at 11:31:48
So that makes 3-4 labels that I have now, depending on how you count them:
Posttraumatic Stress Disorder
Major Depressive Disorder, Recurrent, Mild
Attachment Disorder (this is kind of the optional one since it goes with the PTSD)and now...
Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder
Yup. I told my T yesterday about the compulsions, the things I've been too embarrassed to admit to anyone that I have to do. They've been going on for years and years now, and they get worse with stress and better with less stress. Right now is high stress, so they're really bad and really upsetting me, so I bit the bullet and told him.
He was great. I told him after telling him many times that he couldn't think I was weird, and him agreeing, and saying he only thought supernatural stuff was weird. And that I was worried he would tell me something was wrong with me, and him saying, "I don't think I've ever found anything to be wrong with you, sunnydays," in a really gentle voice.
And he totally got it that I can't help it and it's not as simple as just not doing it, and that I hadn't told him because I was embarrassed. He totally got it. The catch is now he wants me to see pdoc and change meds to try to help with it. I hate changing meds.
And he just made it seem totally normal, and said this stuff is a continuum and it's really treatable for most people and that he was glad I told him.
So how come I still feel like now there's just one more thing wrong with me that I have to deal with? And that I'm totally defective?
But it's a lot better knowing that someone else knows and it's not a total secret anymore. It's just sooo embarrassing.
sunnydays
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