Posted by rjlockhart '05 on August 5, 2008, at 23:47:42
... born really with no sigficance, socially. I am good at little tasks. The people in the year's I was socially active, its my own mind that works against, i say things off and thought "i cant relate to anyone" when really people where just showing a mirror of what i truly am. I shattered that mirror, you dont see one person. You see sides. One smiling, one scared, persona's.To go back 4 years, i just realized when i shattered my own self. I was just someone who was "passive" "yea"......didnt have a clue what somone was trying to tell me. Bedides this deformed person i destoyed.
People see what they want to see, "morality", many things that i would waste time explaining. Its born when your born, if you dont moral's. You considered under personality disorder, which i've researched, read in statement in psychiatric journals.
In Religious views, your considered "Rebellious". Both of have diffrent perpectives, thePsychiatric view - you where danmaged, or nuerologically "diffrent" and resulted into a error, "Bible of the Mind" you must be locked, medicated,in greater error your locked away in psychiatric care, which has no life, depeding on the circumstance.
Bibical view - your where hurt, but still, chose your way, instead of Christ's healing, and the way Christ's lead's. Truth, and Healing. It's simple, but its hard.
Let get the point,
In psychitric terms, genetic disorder that runs in the DNA are what causes illness. Biblical says "Generational Curse".
I've lost all files, all false understanding can lead to false reality.
In term, i will eventually self-destruct. This is caused from the way i was born, and the way I was taught.
I must get both psychiatric, and biblical understanding. Irronically, what I have done, is choice. But before choice, i was nice, and innocence is the best thing to have.
Let my thoughts rest tonight....
-rj
poster:rjlockhart '05
thread:844476
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