Posted by sassyfrancesca on September 11, 2008, at 8:31:04
In reply to How do you ask for help?, posted by JayMac on September 10, 2008, at 18:12:17
Oh, dear Jay: I SO relate. I grew up in extreme poverty with a mentally-ill, physically and verbally violent mother. I never knew my father.
I "married" the original abuser (mother) and endured 31 years of abuse; then got a divorce; then experienced a kind of abuse I'd never heard of Spiritual (abuse); my church of 31 years voted me out of membership with my name up on abig screen followed by the words, "Conduct Unbecoming a Child of God." I fought the system for 18 months to try to stop the pastor (of disaster), LOl from "counseling' any more women.
My t was an angel in disguise (expert in spiritual abuse), and journeyed with me for 18 months.
I've stayed with him for 5 years, and I fully understand the hunger and neediness when you have an emotional void.
www.churchabusepoetrytherapy.com, was the result of the church debacle. It's been phenomenol; almost 15,000 hits. I have always managed to make something positive come out of the ashes of my life....written my memoir; went back to school at age 61 (won a scholarship).
I have spent a lifetime fighting the feelings of not being worthy, and I know those are lies and old tapes from childhood.
In a few months I will no longer be able to afford my t, and he has no idea of the strain I have been living under for over a year.
It doesn't help that I fell in love with him years ago.
I feel your pain angst and misery, and send you love and hugs........xoxoxo, Alice
How do you ask for help? You simply....do it; we can be nothing else...other than authentic and real.
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