Posted by JayMac on October 13, 2008, at 13:58:34
In reply to Re:....please help: Triggers! » JayMac, posted by Phillipa on October 13, 2008, at 13:44:02
I have MAJOR abandonment issues. I have mommy abandonment issues. I basically grew up with a mom who never really met my emotionally needs. She had such deep emotional needs of her own, that she was never able to satisfy mine. I was my own parent. I really never learned how to regulate my emotions. I never learned how to self-soothe. A lot of the time, I can barely calm myself down. Slowly I'm learning. Sometimes I do it really, really well, so well that it seems like I don't have any problems. Other times, like last night, I had no idea what to do. I wanted to keep going and going and going. I was shaking soooo badly. I had a panic attack while I was cutting.
Yet, I feel like I more or less abandoned this guy. I'm so upset at myself for treating him like sh*t.
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