Posted by seldomseen on June 14, 2009, at 11:45:28
In reply to Re: I don't really know what I want to say. » seldomseen, posted by SLS on June 13, 2009, at 19:57:48
"The tunnel seems to run infinitely in both directions."
It does and it doesn't for me. Although sometimes I do feel very trapped.
I guess it's rather sad to say that the feelings of loneliness and sadness fit to me like an old comfortable shoe. It's a known state, and although it hurts, it is simultaneously very familiar. From this familiarity I can function. It's just harder, and more fatiguing than in times when I feel better - more engaged.
And it's not all bad, this sadness, once the acute anxiety is relieved (that's the killer). I feel things very deeply and am keenly aware of the life around me, the beauty of it and the miracles in the tiniest of things. Music has life.
In any case. I'm alright, and will be even more alright is due course.
Seldom.
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