Posted by surfergirl on June 14, 2009, at 15:48:40
Hi everyone,
I still have not heard back from my former therapist. I feel like I need therapy just to deal with how rejected & depressed I feel over this. Even if he does call me back at some point, I am sure that he will not be able to find time to provide any therapy. He is director of a large rescue mission & in charge of men's groups. Probably not interested in this middle aged broad...(I'm sure that's not the case but this is my sarcasm helping me cope)
I did write my PD an email about needing therapy. He was nice enough to reply & suggested EMDR to deal with my issues. I have a history of depression, anxiety but am being treated now for ADD & sleep disorder. I have recurrent illnesses on anniversaries of traumatic events as well as lupus, asthma, arthritis, yada yada yada...I take way to many meds to control everything. I feel like I am always on the edge of severe sorrow or depression. I think if I could get at the root my issues, maybe, maybe I would get healthy mentally & physically.
I have limited funds so I think that EMDR might work out for me, since it is more short term in nature AND deals with past trauma. Has anyone had experience with this therapy, positive or otherwise? How many sessions until there was a benefit? Was it painful? Did the pain go away?
I am searching on the internet for a therapist who does this in my area. It's amazing to me how the Ts market themselves on line. I found one guy that would be great for longer term therapy but does not do EMDR. He is the only one so far that has responded to my emails. I did email 3 others that do EMDR so I'll see what comes of this.
Looking for a T provokes neediness & anxiety & depression in me. I don't like how I feel now. I don't like feeling so out of place in my life & with my family. I am not looking forward to work tomorrow & must get myself "psyched up" to help others.
thanks for listening,
surfergirl
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