Posted by SLS on June 19, 2009, at 5:27:13
In reply to Re: Dreams of being bullied » SLS, posted by HyperFocus on June 18, 2009, at 21:00:59
I really don't have sufficient words to thank you for posting this, so...
:-)
- Scott
> The dreams are one thing, but what about your reactions to them? I'm kind of in the (uniformed) school that views dreams as just emissions from our brain during rest - and not necessarily markers of experiences we need to process. I think the key is that when the biological depression lessens, the nature of the dreams change. During your period of temporary remission were you distressed with these dreams? That could be a guide as to how to handle this.
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> Scott you know you and I share a lot of common experiences and I hope you will forgive me if I go too far projecting my personal experience onto your own. But you have to understand something - In this life jealousy and envy are terrible things. My mother used to tell me a story about a rich child who had all the toys in the world and a destitute child who had only an empty soapbox to play with, but which gave him much happiness. The rich child left his toys to take the soapbox away from the poor child so he could play with it. I grew up and I found this parable demonstrated in my own life. This life and this world are full of evil. You have to realize it is because you are special that you were attacked, by those whose hearts churned and vomited because they desired something they could not have and then tried to destroy. In this life it is the good and the righteous who are persecuted the most - look at what happened to Aung San Suu Kyi for example. How do you think she feels forced to spend decades of her life in prison by the evil men who rape their own country? She had a hysterectomy in prison while the top general's daugther got married laden with diamonds. Is her heart full of hatred towards these people? Probably. But is her head bowed? I doubt it. Has the final chapter been written in Burma's history? I wouldn't bet on it.
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> You can look through history and find thousands of instances of this, all through space and time. In the Christian Bible there are many petitions to deliver one from the hands of their enemies - enemies which seem to have gained ascendancy. You are not the first to feel this way, not by a longshot. But it does not matter if your enemies have a built a city and are carousing day and night, while you wither in a cave. This life is long, terribly long; the road stretches for millions of miles. Sometimes we have to travel thousands of miles in dark valleys full of despair before we begin to ascend to the summit.
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> You may be tempted, like Job, to curse God and die. Yet you live and your hope is alive. Your enemies are being denied victory. Their demons are distorting your reality - trying to convince you of things about yourself you know not to be true. But they cannot prevail. The strength you have gained will one day crush your foes like dry insects under your feet. God reserves the hardest tests for his most blessed sons and daughters. History, both actual and allegorical, seems to correlate this hypothesis. Abraham, Job, Moses, David,...oh yeah remember that crazy kid from Nazareth who was betrayed and persecuted so terribly? Whatever happened to him anyway?
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> I'm also leaving a post for on the meds board. Take care of herself. Don't try to fight elusive battles and apparitions in the air. You are alive and your hope is undiminished - that is enough for now.
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