Posted by alexandra_k on July 1, 2009, at 11:36:21
In reply to evolution, posted by alexandra_k on July 1, 2009, at 11:27:54
I'm done by the way. That thing I need to write... The deadline... I'm done. It's done. I missed the bus (literally) but I didn't miss the bus on doing the damned thing :-)
And I made macaroni cheese. Comfort food that I like very much given the state of cheese in Australia (with it not being orange) and stuff. Cheese and bacon and for some reason peas. Not quite sure what it is about peas but I think they should be compulsory for macaroni cheese.
So... See when I wake up... And back to the ward. I wonder... If I'll collapse tomorrow now that it is done or whether I'll get all excited about conference conference yay. Not too late to bail in fact... It is more about the 'decision' to get organized really. Will I want to curl up and go away or will I want to come back to the world? I get a little scared sometimes... Know they didn't mean for this to happen... But I'll miss some things about the ward very much. Like the doc there three days a week and the registrar there for five. The nurses who give great hugs. The nurses who are good to talk to. The slightly manic girl who thinks she shouldn't have to sleep at all... Whole bunch of people. I just wish I was little and someone could take care of me.
Or maybe... I just wish I could see a therapist more often, really. So it really felt like I can a secure base from which to go off exploring. Now... I feel shaky in the world by myself. You can have this back now, thanks, I don't like the noise it makes.
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