Posted by Lamdage22 on February 24, 2016, at 8:50:08
I didnt talk to anyone about it for years now.. Prostitution is legal here and i go to this brothel alot.
It seems kind of addiction like. I self loathe and the girls want more and more money. This one particular girl told me her mom was in hospital and she needs money for the hospital. I have no idea if she is playing with me or if it is for real.
In the beginning, she took about 2-4 times as much money as other girls in the brothel (which is against the rules), yet she now tells me that she is broke. When i told her that i dont want to pay that high amount she said "its ok i want you, not your money". Which was probably a big fat lie. But i bought it somehow and now she wants big time money which she says is for her sick mother.
So there are negative consequences to my behavior yet i seem unable to stop. The walls are closing in.
I am calling a therapist tomorrow. I need to talk about this.
schizo-affective, type depressive
Seroquel 600mg
Zyprexa 12.5mg
75mg Effexor
Metformin 2000mg
Lithium orotate 360mg
6.000 IU Vitamin D
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