Posted by rjlockhart37 on May 16, 2016, at 20:35:54
In reply to deep feeling emotion (events, memories), posted by rjlockhart37 on April 24, 2016, at 19:28:55
i've had these periods again where i get indepth on a memory, or a time frame. Like....i was watching the end of a show that was on in the 90s, and the last eqisode i watched the end of it, and i felt the same way i did just like 14 years ago.....it's like part of time is still existing in the past......and it's like all this, all this my life, was not suppost to happen.....that i'm some how living in a alternate reality.....not really a nightmare but a disappointment
i still get like that when i think of my family members, and even my little kitty i have.....i'll go into this state where i know there gone, and there only in my memories, it's like a mix of nostalgia and some remorse.
It's like ... there gone, and there's nothing you can do about it, not exactly gone like dying but like the end of a main time period
im trying my best to explain it, it could be densed down into fewer words but i don't know to put it
my cat and my mother are close to me, but it's this part that doenst want them go away, my father passed away last year, at first i couldnt absorb it, it was like he just went on a vacation and he'll come back, it took me along time to absorb, my memories with him......
i just ... feel i don't attached to someone too fully because after seeing them go, it kills you inside
not a genius but understand pain
"unheard pain is told through good company
poster:rjlockhart37
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