Posted by Tabitha on June 28, 2016, at 13:02:45
In reply to new change goal, posted by rjlockhart37 on June 25, 2016, at 22:49:03
> just I wake up and just feel this wasn't suppose to happen.... but it was made through choice, and then a period of time from 2010-2013 where i made no choices, wasted 4 years of my life......i finally said im not gonna stay in this anymore....
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> i had alot of friends, but there's a time when you know your alone, and during that time of desperation to find help is when you look to higher things, i've had anxiety, sadness, grieving, and i never told anyone about it.....it kept it secret.....because deep down i always see people will feel you, but after timem goes by they get annoyed and burdened with being around me, so ... it's difficult when you feel not wanted, but you realize that's a way of life, it's based on your social rank, the choices you make, common intrests, and if those don't match, then it's just natural selection.......just really is burden when you know people don't like you, even when you have thick skin and armor
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> so....set this time and date, from now i will no longeer stay in idleness, there will be goals, i have alot of catching up to do if i do, ill come back and read this post i wrote in 2016, rj make goals, use internal stimulus, if you don't, this depression will return.....the good thing about you is you know how to change, change into new and leave behind this self, it will disappear into new
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>richie, I agree, feelings and thoughts just swirl around, many of them unpleasant, it's part of being human. Taking action or changing circumstances makes more difference to me than anything apart from meds. Self-analysis maintains paralysis.
Let's come back a year from now and see progress
poster:Tabitha
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