Posted by coral on October 23, 2000, at 9:39:09
In reply to Re: Are we being too romantic?, posted by noa on October 23, 2000, at 8:12:45
Romantic? It never occurred to me to romanticize this rotten, evil, ugly devil who takes such damned delight in ruining my life, even if temporarily. To me, there's nothing romantic about being so terrorized that curling up on the couch, UNDER a warm blanket, is the only place I feel safe. To me, there's nothing romantic about a panic attack that'll assault me when I'm just innocently reading a book. There's nothing romantic about being awakened (from bad dreams, no less) with such acute anxiety that I want to claw the very real imaginary hand at my throat. Maybe it's because my first depression hit at 40 and a more youthful attitude of romanticism was long gone. There's nothing romantic about the scars on my wrists or the clear memory of the razor in my hand as it slashed through my flesh.
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