Posted by CarolAnn on October 31, 2000, at 10:15:30
In reply to Our Significant Others, posted by coral on October 30, 2000, at 10:07:37
I totally relate to your post. Sometimes, I feel so guilty about my husband coming home from a 10 hr work day, only to have to deal with cleaning the kitchen, and getting dinner for himself and our toddler. I know and have told him that he is the only reason I have been able to stand firm against the desire for suicide. I worry every day that I am not giving my daughter all she needs to grow up healthy, though I do put every speck of energy I have into meeting her needs, it just leaves all the more in the way of housework for my husband to deal with. I constantly pray to God to end my depression, if not for my sake, then at least for my husband's and child's sake.
In a book I'm reading, the author talks about aging and the fear of death, I thought about how from the first time I seriously considered suicide, I have not viewed death as something to fear. The fact is, if I was having a heart attack or something, my only worry would be all the trouble and difficulty it would cause my family! CarolAnn
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