Posted by Marie1 on May 17, 2001, at 10:40:23
Is it possible to get to the ripe old age of 46 and not realize how basically f**ked up you are? I don't mean this as a rhetorical question. I initially started seeing a psychiatrist over a year ago due to an episode of major depression; I chose a psychiatrist because I thought it was only a matter of the right meds. Well, we got that corrected but I'm still going! Seems like every week I realize some new earth-shattering thing, like, my mother suicided (how does one NOT know THAT, you ask?) or I was sexually abused as a child, or...gee, wonder what"s going to come out next week? Does the rest of the world understand there's a connection between sex & love? Don't people do recreational drugs just for the hell of it? Am I really crazy? Can anyone else relate to this? Is everybody f**ked up?? Or did I just get caught? One time I told my shrink that he could probably find some sort of psychological problem to work on with anybody he lassoed in off the street. He responded that the incidence of mental health problems would be no greater than a medical doc finding physically sick people off the street. I guess it's all a matter of degree. And I've just been deluding myself all along. But no, I don't think so. I've maintained a marriage, job, children, etc. I can't be too crazy if I can do that, right? Can anyone relate? Or am I even more pathetic than I thought?
p.s. Sorry if I offended anyone with the F-word.
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