Posted by kid_A on July 11, 2001, at 16:03:41
In reply to headache, posted by sar on July 11, 2001, at 2:59:07
sar,
words can be cheap, throw away, especially ones from a stranger, but maybe you'll find something in what i say...im a drinker, maybe you arent a drinker per se, perhaps alcohol is not the source of what ails you, i dont think of myself as an alcoholic, but i supose that i am... i drink to get drunk, and i cant stop drinking... wont stop... regardless, drinking isnt necisarily the issue... im reckless, out of control; noticably so...
ive broken bathroom mirrors w/ my head, ive kicked bottles at police cars, ive picked fights w/ people 200 pounds bigger than me, ive made out w/ or chased after friend's gfriends, ive carved the words yes and no into my arms; amoung other things, burned myself, stripped nearly naked in a bar i work at (caught on film), crawled home and woke up on my porch covered in vomit, punched mirrors, kicked windowed doors, you name it, i have done it...
am i proud of any of these noble acts? of course not, but am i any less human? no... we're all capable of actions that sometimes seem out of our control, out of our characters, out of our heads, the fact that you even wrote what you did shows that you have the maturity to sense things within yourself that youd like to correct, your reaction to what youve done is understandable, but in the end you need to get beyond those feelings...
i think we are all emotionaly complex people here, and i think you see that people do understand... do what you can, talk to those you trust, move forward and never forget that you are a beautiful human being...
i dont know you, but we all have beauty inside, regardless if we recognise it or not.
peace.
poster:kid_A
thread:7299
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