Posted by Wendy B. on September 8, 2001, at 22:31:46
In reply to Re: pain pain go away, posted by Phil on September 8, 2001, at 18:05:59
Phil,
Sorry you are bumming today... I have been too, and I try try try to be a good mother, but when my daughter says she needs me to sew on 15 buttons for a sleeping bag she just sewed for her baby-doll, it takes just about everything I can do to not say "What!!! You want me to sew on 15 buttons on that little schmatte (yiddish for rag)!! Are you out of your mind??" But I don't scream at her, I stay in control, and guiltily suggest maybe we can bring it down to 7 buttons...
Then later we watched South Park, where the alien visitors put an anal probe up Eric's ass to monitor him from space, and we laugh till we cry... So it ain't so bad...
Why are we all feeling low today? Is it the weather? It was 80 degrees here again today and muggy, and I could not get off the couch, I felt physically and emotionally awful, depressed, lonely... Or as you say Phil: apathy, confusion, numbness, self-hatred. Yeah, I'd say that just about describes it to a T...Just something to add to the mix... Phil, who wroe the Noonday Demon?
Yours,Wendy
> I was just reading a few pages from The Noonday Demon. This guy can write. Talked about depression worldwide, his own depression, the costs involved and how few people get adequate help. His words are so powerful.
> I just wanted to know, as we all 'should' but don't, you are not alone, Rach. Your post captured my day: no matter how well I know that others are suffering, when I'm in the dumps, it seems like there's not even a world outside.
> It's non-stop, self-directed intense disappointment with all of the mistakes I've made
> and I ABSOLUTELY believe that nothing in my world will really turn out well. Painful thinking. I try to distract myself but energy flows out of my body until I'm frozen in my bed. Scared to open my eyes, scared to close em.
> Our lives as depressives and bipolars are some of the most painful there is. Not are we only suffering intense sadness, apathy, confusion, numbness, and self-hatred, we know that a very large percentage of the world will never know the meaning of these chronic killer diseases. This is tough on us folks.
> My point? We have got to be tougher and fight like there is not an option to give in or to give up.
> Never Surrender
poster:Wendy B.
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