Posted by Lini on December 7, 2001, at 10:00:56
In reply to Re: Still in Canada, posted by Greg A. on December 6, 2001, at 17:23:54
> akc – I get that same thing too. When I am down, for whatever reason, I have this tendency to do destructive things rather than helpful things.
> I don’t want to take my meds cause after all they are supposed to cure me right??
> I don’t want to seek help from the people who have helped me before
> I stop exercising and start drinking
> I look for escape in silly actions like telling a friend that I love her, just to mess things up a bit more. When I get the reaction I deserve, I just pile it on to my ever growing mound of misery.
>
> Yet, when things are reasonably good, I am great for trying to fine tune my life to make it even better. I give great advice. I am patient rather than hasty or short tempered. I am active rather than passively sitting and waiting for things to happen to me. I make reasonably good decisions that I can see are logical instead of no decision or some action precipitated by faulty thinking.
> Hang in there akc – we’re both due for some relief. Pick one thing that’s good for you and do it today. I am going to go to the gym for an hour.
>
> GregHey Greg
your message really struck me, cause it almost seemed like i could have written it myself. that is EXACTLY the type of things I am doing right now. I couldn't make a positive choice if I was paid to. and i can't figure out what it is about. i have been switiching my meds lately due to side effect issues and am now on Zoloft. I just feel an overwhelming "who cares" with added bits of drama (calling ex-boyfriends when i am drunk type nonsense). I feel like a big mystery to myself. and the drinking has gotten out of control. . .
anyway, can you think of anything that helps you get over the hump? do things just seem to pass? do you think it has anything to do with the holidays? the war?
hopefully the Zoloft will kick in and I can turn back into a rationale motivated human being.
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