Posted by christophrejmc on March 10, 2002, at 0:50:48
In reply to pretty vacant, posted by trouble on March 8, 2002, at 20:43:07
This thread has brought forth a lot of not-so-pleasant childhood memories long since repressed. I don't know if I'm ready to deal with all of these feelings, but just reading about similar experiences has been very helpful. I always thought that I would have the last laugh -- that they would end up leading boring, meaningless lives, working 9-5 in some stale cubicle while I would be smart and successful. Unfortunately, I watched these people get accepted to some of the better institutions of higher learning while I remained sad and lonely, losing my smarts and without much of a future save for a cap shaped like a burger.
I was at a museum recently and I saw a young kid... His entire grade was on a field trip. I watched him try to engage in conversation with some of the other kids, usually being ignored or insulted. He spent most of his time by himself, sometimes eyeing the other students. He seemed quite depressed, and he reminded me of myself at that age. I really wanted to say something to him, something that might cheer him up or give him the courage to stand up for himself. But what could I have said? Would words make any difference at all?
I hope this isn't way off-topic and makes atleast SOME sense.
-christophre
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