Posted by Roo on September 9, 2002, at 10:06:18
Isn't that funny I live in Durham Ontario and if I can find a way to put this on social I will..and by the way 6ft 1
..sandy blonde hair physically fit Blue eyes soon to be meds free if things keep getting better , single , bold , spiritual
and enjoy everything ..if you know what I mean, that life has to offer anyways ...Hmmm my brother is a fireman in
Florida...Helecopter rescue called Bay Flight too...only I don't live on the very edge anymore..???Guess its time to
start to enjoy life again ..Remeron with Clonazepam ....Long live..boy am I happy ..see you on social (-: Robin DJ
Hey Robin DJ---How was your weekend? I had a great one--went to the beach. A couple of my friends
rented a house on Emerald Isle...the weather was perfect...the water was not too cold, not
too warm...perfect...just floated around with friends, laughing and talking, eating
seafood, playing frisbee. Very nice. Still struggling a little with depression---feeling a
little raw (emotionally) without that drug buffer. (Been off meds for a month or so)..but I'm wondering if I can just work really
hard with these distorted thoughts and deal with them that way. I just can't take a drug that
numbs me sexually and emotionally...too big a sacrifice...and I've already done it for too long
(8 years). Really enjoying all those feelings coming back...physical, spiritual and otherwise.
Sometimes I'll get moved to tears---that's really amazing. I like that. I think I used to be
scared of the fact that I"m an emotional person. Of course there's the dark side too...I'm finding that
now without the buffer of the drug, I can take things way too personally, not trust friend's as much,
start feeling like a "loser" and have a harder time pulling out of that....feel like a failure, etc.
Just cross your fingers for me...that I can handle my emotions and be happy without meds....Please God!!
I guess if I have to take them, I will...maybe next time I'll try Remeron, like you, since it's not supposed
to effect sex. But then I'm also afraid of turning into a porker on it. Well, i'll cross that bridge when
it comes.So tell me more about you----you say you're spiritual--what do you mean by that?
How old are you? Somehow I'm guessing you're young? In your twenties? And you climb
mountains? That's cool. I've gone rock climbing a few times and was both terrified and
having a blast! I love to hike. It's part of my sunday ritual to take a long 3 hour hike
in one of the forrests here. It's really sooothing. I think I'm going to take a solo
camping trip to the mountains soon. Well not totally solo, i'll take my dog.Glad you are feeling happy, Robin D.J. It inspires me!
poster:Roo
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