Posted by Miller on January 11, 2003, at 22:52:15
In reply to Re: Lonely is the night » Miller, posted by mikhail99 on January 11, 2003, at 22:39:34
Hi Mik,
The hardest thing about not getting support is the frustration of not understinding. My husband doesn't understand and I can't find the words to help him understand.
In fact, that was part of my agreement with the on-line shrink. At the end of all of this he has agreed to write a letter to my husband if I decide on suicide to help him understand.
I don't understand why I feel I have to die to feel better. But, I do know that when I feel bad, I actually obsess over suicide. It's like there is no other alternative.
I am glad I had the support of people here. Otherwise, I would have none at all. That's why it saddens me to see all of the people leave and get blocked. There was a lot of anger and hurt flying around the board. Now is actually the time we all need to stick together, not be pulled apart.
When emotions are high, the defenses are out. They have to be out for a reason. SO, our job, as fellow posters, should be to help figure out WHY the defenses are there and help to support the ones that are so in need. When more than one person has defenses up, there we need to help sort the conflicts. Agression is releasing the hurt. A lot of people were hurting. It's too bad we couldn't figure out a way to help everyone that needed it in time.
Enough rambling. I have to sleep again. Thanks for posting to me. It feels good to be back.
-Miller
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