Posted by Dinah on June 19, 2003, at 9:42:34
In reply to About waiting till your 50, posted by mmcasey on June 19, 2003, at 9:31:51
I'm getting closer to fifty, but I don't really feel like the I'm free to make that choice. It would hurt too many people in my life. I made the choice to marry and have a child. I don't feel like I could justify choosing something that would hurt them.
That being said, I have no expectation that things will ever get better. I have everything I ever wanted. All I can do from here is lose things. I have a home, a decent husband, a wonderful son. Yet thoughts of suicide hang around me like... I don't know. Things can't get any better than this. There is no possibility. My life is perfect. Except for wanting to be out of it.
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