Posted by almondjoy on November 18, 2003, at 2:44:57
In reply to Re: Slipping Under Again, posted by Waterlily on November 16, 2003, at 16:12:47
I understand too, and I think I realized it sooner other times, but after two months of everything being just peachy, all the sudden i started getting more tired and everything started seeming to hard. Now I don't want to be around anyone again, irritable, having nightmares. I'm tired now...tried crying myself to sleep but couldn't fall asleep even then. I don't know. It seems like I think "there is an answer, find it and everything will be perfect A+" so i find it and everything is B- (but who could ask for more) then i think i've found IT so no worries, until IT isn't really IT and i have to keep looking (unless i don't feel like it anymore and i take a break for days or weeks or months then i keep looking) because "there is an answer"
ive been trying to find acceptance in that im not going to one day be cured and find myself mentally healthy forever, I could deal with a certain level of discomfort but i feel like im going back past ok past discomfort past pain and directly to agonizing desperation. i don't know how to stop myself where i am though.
i can look at my meds and stress level and diet and exercise and all the ITs that might help if i recycle them but whats that going to doi hate the feeling when my head is out of control. (like when its 340a and i have to be up for class in 4 hours.)
I don't have any suggestions really, just know i empathize...sending you a psychic hug ;)
poster:almondjoy
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