Posted by Jai Narayan on December 6, 2003, at 10:42:02
Someone asked me why I was on the psychobabble site. I got to wondering. Why was I here? At the time it was just a puzzle to me. Now it's forming into thoughts and words.
This is the first chat room I have ever been in. I stumbled upon it and never left. I have gotten to know a few people. I have been touched by so much of what I see on this site. Okay here comes the personal part: I come from a very dysfunctional family. Anyone who may have followed my postings can see this is true. My mother died this year and with her died the central figure in my lifetime of emotional trauma.
With that said…. I need to rest a moment…
I have never been in a community (I see this site as a community) where I could speak freely about my pain, family mental illness and the love and support I have in me for these struggles. I have met some very kind and supportive people on this site. I am older and now somewhat wiser from all my struggles, healing and connections. I am in the phase of my life where giving back makes sense. So I am here to give when I can. You all have set an unusually high standard. I hope I have something to contribute but I most certainly have something to learn.
When I was a child and I would hear an ambulance siren I would stop and offer a prayer. Now I am an adult and have a scanner. So when I hear someone's in trouble I know where they are and in what kind of danger. I can focus my energy & surround them in the light of love and healing. I pray for all who are involved in the situation to remain calm and do the right thing. Then if someone has died I hold them in as much light as my being can produce. I see psycho babble along those lines. It's a place where no one knows me and I can offer the best I have got at any moment. I can give my light freely. Thank you for this opportunity.
Jai Narayan
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