Posted by Wildflower on January 10, 2004, at 23:17:10
I hesitate to even write this but I'm in a very bad place right now and really need some support.
Just got home from my work party (had two and a half drinks) and now I feel like complete dirt. Besides the fact that I'm coming down with a cold/flu or something, I feel totally alone in this world - like I was the mistake of the universe. I was supposed to go out after the event but those I was to go out with made other plans. I tried to call a relative of mine (just to talk) but she didn't answer her phone and I even tried to call my ex (who treated me like dirt) as a last resort but got his voicemail.
I can't stop sobbing and wondering why the heck I'm on this earth. I feel like no one cares about me and that it wouldn't matter to anyone if I weren't around anymore. Even my cat was so scared of my crying that he's hidden under my bed and won't come out.
What is wrong with me? When will the downward spiral end?
poster:Wildflower
thread:299242
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