Posted by Ilene on February 24, 2004, at 21:49:11
In reply to how to lower my expectations, posted by socialdeviantjeff on February 24, 2004, at 13:04:10
> I'm being needy again.
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> SOmetimes I with my ambition and intellectual status (I'm no genius, but bear with me) matched my productivity due to my illness.
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> It's hard to come to grips with the fact I can't do much if any gainful activity. I have a hard time dealing with myself over this. Haven't been able to look in the mirror, save for hygeine reasons for a very long time.
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> Any advice on how I could lower my expectations and begin to accept all of this?
It's okay if you're needy as long as you maintain good hygiene. We're all needy here, but some of us don't practice good grooming.I feel the same way. It's like the last 9 years of my life fell down a black hole, but I'm older all the same. I even got a master's degree I'll probably never be able to use. It was an incredible amount of work for a person sliding into a black hole.
I know this is self-torture. My pdoc points out I've been sick. She's right. I'm sick. If I had cancer I would be praised for "my brave fight". Maybe some day I'll be able to get over the bitterness.
It sounds to me that you are doing what you can and taking care of yourself. I have a cyber-friend who won't take meds or engage in much to improve his situation. He's suicidal most of the time. He whines about not having a girlfriend. It's gotten rather old and I don't spend as much time with him as I used to. Hardly communicate at all, as a matter of fact. You're not like that.
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