Posted by Shy_Girl on April 4, 2005, at 20:59:59
In reply to Re: Sorry peoples..., posted by alexandra_k on April 3, 2005, at 22:00:03
> Actually, I mean that very seriously.
> I thought that I really might kill myself if I found myself in the situation I am in now.
> I tried to tell myself that it wouldn't be that bad and that I really shouldn't do that - but I was scaired that I would do that should that happen.
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> But in talking to you I realised how far I had come and somewhere in there I found the courage to not get into that horrible black space where that seemed like the only option. I took it hard - and times were tough there for a while. And it was reflecting on all that stuff I said to you that helped me come through that.
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> You helped me more than you will ever know.Wow, I'm really glad you were there to help me and hence help yourself :-) It's pretty amazing how people can connect with one another without ever meeting. I realized something as well, that of my illogical thinking. I thought that death was better than failing in school...but what is the purpose of doing well in school?...For me, it is not about money or even success...it is about learning, being happy and making sure I can live a decent life. I realized that I can continue to do these things with or without getting a degree. If I can be truly happy if I don't get a degree...I will choose happiness. I choose to get a degree because I like to learn, but I'm not going to sacriface my sanity for it. If I get my PhD in my 60s, that will be ok with me (as long that that is what I wanted to do). If I'm not smart enough to get a PhD, that's ok because I don't need one to enjoy life :-)
Take care of yourself (((Alexandra)))
Shy_Girl
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