Posted by med_empowered on February 27, 2006, at 23:19:54
I hate my life. I went back to school--then, my social phobia got so bad, I've just stopped going. I shake, I cant concentrate, I've missed classes--I don't know what to do. I cant see a shrink--no health insurance until next year. I'm overweight. I'm turning mean--my misery is making me hard to be around.
I moved, and I have to reason to think that some people around here know about an incident about a year ago that resulted in my involuntary hospitalization. To top it off, I see a former shrink around town now and then.
I hate my life. I think I might hate myself. I'm in my early 20s and I feel old. I've considered suicide, but it seems like a lot of work.
I'm wasting my time and my life, but I dont see how things could get any better. I'm so screwed up. I don't really have anyone to talk to about it; my parents just give me $$$ and call to say hi now and then, but nothing deep--I don't think they really think I can do anything. They laughed at me when I said I wanted to go to grad school.
I'm stuck, stuck stuck stuck and I don't know what to do. I'm so tired, really.
What do I do?
poster:med_empowered
thread:614099
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