Posted by Deneb on April 21, 2006, at 22:43:08
In reply to The thing about darkness..., posted by madeline on April 21, 2006, at 21:48:53
When I think back, I get scared. I can't believe some of the things I did...Scary stuff.
I'm sorry I did those things and I'm sorry I wrote about them here. :-(
I'm sorry I made threats. I'm going to apologize to Dr. Bob in person.
I hope my dark thoughts never come back. They get dangerous sometimes, don't they? I hope I've outgrown them now.
I think I'm past that stage in my life now. No more bad thoughts. I'm facing the world instead of avoiding it.
I call them my bad/dark thoughts because I don't think it was depression. Depression is not a big problem for me, it's my instability. I used to get the bad thoughts every once in a while. It was my way of thinking.
Now my thinking has changed. I don't know what caused it. My pdoc said it's a combination of meds and therapy, I dunno.
I think it would be pretty cool if it was because of meds. It's really easy to take meds. LOL
If I ever do start getting in a bad way, it'll be hard to imagine the good times. I've never been able to do it.
Deneb*
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